Day: January 5, 2012

I don’t quite know what I expected when we received the asperger’s diagnosis. Perhaps, community? Understanding? Peace? I don’t know. It’s hard to feel part of a community when there is so much division and anger. One group says you aren’t autistic enough to be here…you don’t know our struggles. No I don’t. But, you don’t know our struggles, either. I mean this on the human level. How many of us know what it is like to walk in another’s shoes? None. Yes, my son is verbal. Yes, my son is gifted. But, you don’t see his ulcers from the anxiety he holds inside. You don’t see him when he has spent hisday struggling to contain stimms. You don’t see him when he is sad because he feels as if he has no friends. As HUMANS, we all want love and understanding. Because I speak of asperger’s it does not mean I do not want care about the autism spectrum at large. I do. I speak of what I know. Just as someone who writes about breast cancer doesn’t seek to diminish leukemia. We are all doing our best to navigate this world and form community. Perhaps, I look in the wring places. Perhaps community is closer than “message boards” websites and blogs. Perhaps, I need to forge a community of my own…